April 2018 - Time of The Month

Hi.

A fair warning to any readers, that this post isn't going to be as upbeat as some of my other TOTM's.

April has been sh*t. I don't know if maybe that's because it's the time of year where you suddenly realise how quickly it's going or that it's the awkward stage between spring and summer, but this month really hasn't been my favourite.

I've been having a tough time and I didn't want to write about it but then I realised that it is only fair to myself when reading these back to write about both the good and the bad. Now I can't sit here and say this entire month was rubbish, because I have had some good days but it hasn't always been sunshine and rainbows.

I had my audition on the 12th of April, it went well and I was accepted to the University of Greenwich in London. My dream university. The perfect place for me. If you had asked me 2 months ago if I was going to accept this offer, I would have grabbed you by the shoulders and jumped up and down shouting yes yes yes! But things have changed.

I've thought about it a lot and my head hurts as a result. Anytime anyone mentions University to me I immediately sigh and shrug the conversation off because I don't want to think about it/ As amazing as it would be to go to Greenwich for 3 years to study drama and theatre, a part of me doesn't want to leave home. Anyway, after many tears and meltdowns, I've applied for a university nearer to home. Meaning I can stay in my current job and do drama at the same time. My head is still all over the place and there is a lot of things for me to still think about but for the time being I'm trying to let myself breathe.

I haven't done much this month, just working hard to earn the money. I've definitely overworked myself as I'm so run down and drained. I need to remind myself that sometimes it's ok to say no to extra shifts and hours when it's taking a toll on my health.

I've also come down with really bad hay fever this year for the first time. I've only ever slightly suffered with hay fever to the point where it hasn't really affected anything I do, but this time round I've had it really bad where I've been up most nights and asleep most evenings as it's the only time I've been able to catch some rest. People always said it got worse the older you get and god damn where they right.

WATCHING
I'm all up to date with Riverdale and I LOVE IT. I'm such a Bughead stan and I've ordered a South Side Serpents sweatshirt and I cannot wait to never take it off.
I've started watching season 1 of Love Island in preparation of the new series. I can't wait till it starts again so I can become inactive from 9:00 every night.

MUSIC
No Tears Left To Cry - Ariana Grande
Open Your Eyes - Liv Dawson
Let Me - Zayn
Confidence - RAYE, Maleek Berry, Nana Rouges
Sleep Talking - Charlotte Lawrence
Dear June (Lost Recording #7) - Mark Diamond

That's been April.

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